A few weeks ago I updated the “About Me” on the blog. Initially I had put something vague about who I was because it felt rather strange to have a whole website to myself. It felt a little narcissistic at first. Plus, I wanted the blog to be about my friends too.
Since I have recently been looking for a job, a real job with benefits and everything, I thought it best just to give the specifics since I decided to include the blog on my resume. Over the last fourteen years when my son was born I have had a resume filled with full time, part-time, contract work, etc. I have been in and out of the work force to adjust to having my son and then the twins which were a huge surprise. I stayed home with them for almost 2 years. I went back to work full time only to finally get laid off after the mortgage meltdown. Since then I have worked part time contract again while being a stay at home mom and blog this little thing called Livin’ Sassy! Y’all still with me?
I’m telling you all of this because I went to an event with my husband on Friday night. It was a huge gala for one of the local chambers of commerce. It had over 1600 people in attendance. It is an event where you meet a lot of people that your husband knows and you might not. I hadn’t been to one of these events in a long time. Being an off again and on again stay at home mom, I was kind of dreading it. You find yourself being introduced by your spouse and they get around to asking you what you do for a living. The minute you blurt out “stay at home mom” the conversation always just naturally leaps to something else.
Friday night would be different.
As I rode the first of what would be four flights of escalators to get to the event, I held my husband’s hand. He told me how beautiful I looked and how proud he was to have me as his date. Of course I got a little teary eyed. Even though I sometimes don’t see the value in my status of a stay at home mom, he always does. Lately, I have been bored and ready to go back to work. Blogging can be a little lonely and I am the type of person that needs people! And I miss the competition of working in the mortgage business, an industry that I love. Of course, there’s this little thing called putting our kids in college as well.
Over the next three flights he told me about a conversation he had with someone that was a regular reader of my blog. He couldn’t get over how passionate she felt about what I had written over the past year. He admits to occasionally reading my posts, but certainly not all of them. He said she would often go back and re-read posts because they made her feel good and how she would save them to read right before bed time to assure that she would have wonderful dreams.
By the time that we were finishing up our conversation, we had made it to the sign in desk to get our table number. My husband immediately introduced me and I was quickly asked what I did for a living and I proudly said, “I’m a blogger.”
When I first started blogging over a year ago, I didn’t really know what to expect. I have muddled my way through by writing about what interests me. I also wanted to share how special my friends are to the world when they had often forgotten it themselves.
In sharing their stories I have found myself again too.
I have also shed a lot of tears. I have written posts about life, death, cancer, miscarriage and the pain of loss. And through it all it has brought healing. I never knew the power of writing. There is such beauty in words.
I have turned down a few jobs already. I am holding out for that perfect fit. And of course, I want to continue blogging.
At an interview recently, I was asked to use a few words that would best describe me. It caught me off guard because we were already over an hour into the interview and were making small talk and it seemed to me that they were wrapping the interview up.
I stopped. I thought about it for a couple of seconds and then boldly said, “I’m loyal, I’m passionate and I’m smart.” When I walked out of the interview and shook hands to leave, I was second guessing my answer. Was it too arrogant? I don’t recall ever saying something so bold out loud and certainly not to a future employer. But what I then realized is that in pushing myself to try something that I never knew that I could do, I found confidence that I had been lacking.
I don’t know what God’s ultimate plan is for me. But I do know that I am thankful for the gifts that HE has given me.
Thank you for helping me find my way.
And thank you for being a Livin’ Sassy reader.
Love y’all.
Stay Sassy.
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